A wave of hot anger suffused my face. How stupid of me not to have
noticed it before. Now I remembered the men who had followed us.
Our mail was being intercepted. How was Baxter to procure his divorce
without gaining evidence in just such a way?
* * * * *
One night I started on a long walk alone. I walked along the beach. In
the dark I took off my clothes and plunged for a swim into the chilly
surf ... a high sea was thundering in. I was caught in the undertow,
swept off my feet, and dragged beyond by depth ... for a moment I was of
a heart to let go, to permit myself to be drowned ... I was even
intrigued, for the moment, by the thought of what the newspapers would
say about my passing over in such a romantic way.
But the will to live rose up in me. And I fought my way,--and it was a
bitter fight,--back to shallow water. I flung myself prone on the beach,
exhausted.
When I reached our room again, I related my adventure to Hildreth.
It was she who took care of me now. I lay all night in a high fever ...
but I was so happy, for the woman of my heart sat close by me, holding
my hand, speaking soft terms of endearment to me, tending to all my
wants.
This tenderness, this solicitude and companionship seemed for the first
time better to me than the maddest transports of passion that swept us
into one.
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